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Mine is a generationurban, educated, middle-aged, many of us
living alone long years at a timewho grew up endorsing intimacy
as a first value but have become habituated to the solitary state inflicted
on us by modern times. As a result, we have become eccentric. No matter
how much we hate our loneliness and desire the sustained company of
friends and lovers, we find, increasingly, that the "short take" in
human relations is the one we're actually up for: the two-hour coffee,
the three-hour dinner, the twice-a-week evening. We've become inured
to an emotional diet of ongoing brevity. But we often don't know this
about ourselveslonging as we regularly do for what we think of
as steady connectionso the discrepancy between what we say we
want and what we may actually want makes us somewhat strange.
I can hardly describe the satisfactionthe reliefI
have known in these past weeks, coming home, after a day and an evening
out in the world, to The Assassin's Cloak, a huge anthology of
diary entries (put together by a pair of Edinburgh academics, Irene
and Alan Taylor) that routinely delivered to me a degree of pleasure
so great that the situation I've just described became clarified. I
seemed, night after night, to be exactly where I wanted to be: in the
company of many kinds of people, all speaking wonderfully well, entertaining
and absorbing me without stint, and all within the limits of the Inestimable
Short Take. As I say, the pleasure was a revelation.
Everyone under the sun is here, from the seventeenth century to the
twentieth: poets, painters, novelists; housewives, invalids, prisoners;
politicians, journalists, actors; English, American, Russian, French;
the famous and the obscure; the good and the nasty; the noble and the
ridiculous. Together their entries amount to a steady accumulation of
intelligence, humor, and spirit, delivered in every emotional keyagitated,
bored, angry, envious, thoughtful, misanthropicand many with the
power to startle or move in just a few paragraphs. Or, better yet, a
few words. Consider the following:
"Gandhi has been assassinated. In my humble
opinion, a bloody good thing but far too late." (Noël Coward)
"I think that people who manifest their love for you, physically,
when they know your lack of reciprocation, are abominably selfish."
(Kenneth Williams, English actor)
"Not many remarks about art have so gripped [me] as Meier-Graefe's
comment on Délacroix: 'This is a case of a hot heart beating
in a cold person.'" (Bertolt Brecht)
"Marya called for her passport. I feel I refrained from . . . only
out of shame and the fact that she had pimples on her face." (Leo
Tolstoy)
"Heart hurt for first time in years." (Dawn Powell)
"When a public figure joins the church at the age of fifty plus, it
means one thinghe's planning to run for President of the United
States." (Drew Pearson)
"I yearn for a beautiful woman with no sexual anxieties who will just
take me! Have inhaled too much orgone radiation." (Wilhelm Reich)
"I have discovered that I cannot burn the candle at one end and write
a book with the other." (Katherine Mansfield)
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